HOW AM I GOING TO ACCOMPLISH EVERYTHING

I found myself feeling sorry for myself. My “check engine” light had begun glowing brightly on the dashboard of my car, once again I had forgotten to take out the trash on pick up day, the smoke detector battery was dead, both of the tags on my car were expired and there were light bulbs going out all over the house. Maybe it doesn’t sound like much to you, but these are the things that my husband would have taken care of. As his illness progressed over the past 2 years, he was unable to do a lot and I took on more and more of the responsibilities and tasks, but these were all the little things he still did plus I knew I could call him and even if he just said, “It is going to be alright” it made it all ok. Now he is not there to call and to hear his reassurance or instructions on what I need to do.

Once again the feeling of loneliness was overwhelming. But I remembered that God has promised me in…

Phillipians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. “

I then also remembered a passage about David and his army that had been off fighting at war. When they returned, the enemy had come into their camp and kidnapped all their wives and children and took them away which included his beloved Abigail. They had no one to encourage them up and it says in…




1Sam 30:6 “And David was greatly distressed; for the people spake of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and for his daughters: but David encouraged himself in the LORD his God.”

So I collected myself and told myself “It is going to be alright, you are a strong woman and capable of taking care of all this”. People that know me, know that I am a person that relies on Lists for everything. So I made myself a list. Instead of saying “Why Lord?” I went through my list and took care of everything. I called a friend’s husband who had told me “if you ever need anything….” So he told me to bring the car over and while he was fixing the car, just to plan to have supper with them. It was a great evening with friends. I bought a whole new smoke detector because I realized the old one was at least 15 years old, I bought light bulbs and starting going through the house replacing them. I went to buy the tags for the car and then went to have it inspected and asked the man at the service station to put the tags on my windshield for me. I am still forgetting trash day, but I am working on it. I’m finding that instead of having to rush home each evening to care for my husband as I had become so accustomed to doing, I can take care all these little chores.








After completing everything, I began to feel guilty for questioning the Lord why he had chosen not to heal Steve and he took him from me. A very dear friend of mine sent me an email that she attached the words to a song that she had written. When I read it, tears of joy began to flow and I could just see my husband in heaven and I really really knew in my heart how much he had suffered and gone through and now he was able to be Steve again, happy, full of joy, laughing and singing in heaven.

Everytime something has gone wrong or happened, God has placed someone in my path to take care of things and help me. I’d like to share my friend’s Song Lyrics with you. May you be blessed and uplifted as I was.

"PEACE LIKE A RIVER FLOWED"

AS I LAY DOWN LAST NIGHT,
TO REST MY WEARY HEART,
THE LORD GAVE ME THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DREAM.
I SAW THE GATES OF HEAVEN OPEN WIDE,
AS HEAVENLY ANGELS BEGAN TO SING,
AND PEACE LIKE A RIVER FLOWED OVER ME.
FOR IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CHORUS,
I HEARD A SWEET FAMILIAR VOICE,
AND I LOOKED, BUT I KNEW, WHAT I WOULD SEE.
YES, I SAW YOU STANDING THERE,
WITHOUT A PAIN, WITHOUT A CARE,
AND I KNEW THAT YOU WERE WHERE,
YOU WANTED TO BE.
NOT ON THIS EARTH HERE BELOW,
WITH ALL ITS' SORROWS AND ALL ITS' WOES,
AND I FELT PEACE, LIKE A RIVER,
FLOW OVER ME.
YES, I KNOW I'LL ALWAYS MISS YOU,
BUT SOMEDAY, I'LL JOIN YOU THERE,
AND WE'LL ALL BE TOGETHER ONCE AGAIN.
SISTER AND BROTHER,
FATHER AND MOTHER,
DAUGHTER AND SON, WITH ONE ANOTHER,
THAT'S WHY THIS PEACE, LIKE A RIVER,
FLOWS OVER ME.
AND I HEARD BELLS IN HEAVEN RINGING,
AS EACH ANGEL, AND THE CHOIR BEGAN TO SING.
AND I HEARD YOU LAUGH FOR JOY,
YOU WERE HAPPY I COULD SEE,
AND PEACE LIKE A RIVER,
A MIGHTY RUSHING RIVER,
I FELT PEACE, LIKE A RIVER,
FLOW OVER ME.......
BY: SHIRLEY BONOAN